Anxiety and crawling

Today for lack of something better to do to release some of my anxiety, I am going to blog. Hopefully it will help. I'm sure many of you heard about the mid-air collision of the two life flight helicopters in Arizona last week. This is the source of my anxiety. You see, Shawn works for one of the companies involved. He and Chad (my uncle, who also works for Classic as a paramedic) were actually about 45 minutes away from Flagstaff transporting a patient to the hospital when the accident took place. My heart goes out to the families who lost their loved ones, but at the same time I am so grateful and feel so blessed that our families are too not mourning such losses. I have always known that Shawn's career as a helicopter pilot may not be the safest (he has always tried to convince me otherwise) but, never before has an accident hit so close to home and I have never felt so much anxiety sending him off to work for the next week. During this past week I thought we were both dealing with the situation rather well. He was just finishing up with his 7 day shift when the accident took place and would then be home for the next 7 days, so it gave us both plenty of time for contemplation and to deal with the situation. People would ask how he was doing,dealing with such a loss and I would tell them that he was dealing with it really well. They would then ask how I was doing. I thought it was kind of weird, to ask how I was doing, I mean ya I was worried how Shawn was handling things and even about him when he returned to work. But after today, when his 7 day shift has began again I realize why they were asking about me as well. I cannot stop thinking about him, what he is doing, and if he is safe. I trust his knowledge and skill as a pilot and am sure he will now be safer than ever, but I just can't get over the fear that his life too will be cut short by such an accident. I guess I can only pray and trust in the Lord and maybe someday I will be able to feel calm again when I think of him flying.



Here is a little brighter side to this post... Shawn made his yummy cheesecake for our fourth of July bbq, notice his adorable pink apron! and Brooklyn got to lick the beaters, she's already a cheesecake addict! and here's a pic of Brooklyn being a little ham -Shawn says her bow is WAY to big for her poor little head, he was not pleased with it :) and by the way she started crawling about a week ago! We didn't think she ever would because she was so determined to walk, but she finally figured it out and now nothing is safe!! It is so funny to watch her, whenever she reaches her destination, she will sit back on her bottom and clap for herself! In the video she had just woke up from a nap so she's just a bit tipsy, usually she's not so crazy :)




Our hearts and prayers go out to those affected by the traumatic accident.